Day 24 - A picture of something you wish you could change

The very first thing that I thought of was "the world." I would love to one day do something that has an impact a positive impact on the entire world. Honestly, I don't know if that will happen. I feel like I could have made it happen if I still wanted to be a teacher. Who knows I could have taught the alphabet to a future world famous author. I doubt it would have actually happened, but it is a nice idea to think about. I don't even know in what area I would want to change the world in. There are the classic, world peace, cure cancer, cure HIV/AIDS, exc that I could default on... but I am not sure which one I would choose. And come on, you are greedy if you say "all of it." While it would be cool to change the world, I don't even know what part of the world's problems is on the top of my list.

Okay, here is something that I wish i could change. It falls closer to my personal life. I wish i could change when Rusty and I got married. I wish we would have gotten married sooner, like over the summer. (We got married in October btw) I feel like I wasted so much by staying in Valdosta Aug-Dec. I am not even referring to extra time with Rusty, before he eventually deploys. I am more talking about time I wasted at VSU. I wasted so much money. Some I wasted by traveling to visit Rusty once a month. Most of it though was by the substantial amount of loans that I had to take out to be at VSU that semester. I hated my major, so even if those credits would transfer (which they won't) I don't enjoy the degree. One day (soon!) I will be paying all of that $ back and that thought just sickens me. On another note I wasn't pleasant to be around that last semester at VSU. The people I met didn't get to see my better, positive side. My friends from before probably did not appreciate my attitude change. I hated everything last semester. My grades were good, which looks good I guess, but again no where I will be traveling to will have the major or anything close to what I was doing so they do not care about those classes I took. I just feel like it was all a big waste.

Day 23 - A picture of your favorite book

Jeeze. I don't read as much as I should. I want to read more, but I feel like I never have the time. In reality if I dumped facebook, netflix, something I would have plenty of time to read. I just choose other things. I'm going to have to dig a little further back and go with the Harry Potter series. I read those books as they came out. Which aligned my age with Harry's age. It was pretty cool, I am a part of the Harry Potter generation. I don't have a favorite book out of the series though. 

Day 22 - A picture of something you wish you were better at.

Yay! This is one that didn't take me loads of time to come up with! I wish I was better at initiating conversations. Oh, and just having conversations in general. I am so socially awkward sometimes. I don't mind just sitting back and hearing a good conversation, but I have to remember that other people don't always take silence the right way. It's not that I don't WANT to have nice conversations, get to know people better, exc I just freeze up sometimes... okay most of the time... and don't know what to say. Rusty hates it, because he feels like I don't like any of his friends. And on the other side a lot of his friends don't think I like them, because I don't talk much. When I try to come up with nice conversations I always feel awkward and either say something stupid, blush, or freeze up. It usually just doesn't go well for me. One reason I think I do okay, despite this awkward personality trait, at work is because the guests aren't there for long. When I start blushing, freezing up, exc I can easily look busy by going in to the back, making drinks, or my favorite is when another guest comes along and saves the day.

Day 21 - A picture of something you wish you could forget.

Hmmm... I am trying to think outside of the box for this one. I don't want to go for the default "I don't want to forget anything, because my past is what has made me become the person I am today." Honestly, I am sure there are things from my past that I wish I COULD forget, I just don't remember them right now. I am too tired to come up with something...just go with it... THAT'S IT!!!

Okay... here's something! I wish I could forget how tired I am! You know those days when the clock seems stuck and you are stuck in time. Then you think about how you didn't sleep well, you stayed up too late on FB, your feet hurt, you wish you had gotten an extra 30min of sleep, because your neighbors woke you up before your alarm, blah blah blah. I wish I didn't have those thoughts. I wish I didn't focus on why I am tired, I wish I could just forget about it. Whenever I think about WHY I am tired, it just makes me more tired. It all starts with the simple thought, "I'm tired." Am I the only one like this? 

Day 20: A picture of somewhere you would love to travel.

I first want to point out my favorite place that I have ever been. December 2009 my mom and I went to the Bahamas, best Vacation ever! I loved it. I WILL go back one day! We staied in the condos near Atlantis and got the passes for Atlantis for free. It was SUCH an amazing trip. 

Seriously, best vacation I have ever had. I want to go back with the husband one day!

Now to today's category... where I WANT to go.

When I was little, I went on a cruise. The only thing I remember about that one was having to stay on the "top bunk" and getting all the coke I could drink. That is it! I sorta remember going snorkeling, but not really. I really want to go on another one. Fingers crossed, I will be going on one this summer with the in-laws after Rusty graduates power school. I am trying not to get my hopes up until we have our cabin booked. 

I have always wanted to go to Australia! Just something about it has always attracted me. I hope I will be able to go one day.

Another place I would like to go is Hawaii. I am so indecisive if I actually want to be stationed there, but I definitely want to visit!

Lastly on my list is somewhere in Europe. I don't know where, I just kinda want to go to say I have been. :-P

Day 19: A picture and a letter.

Uhhh... this category is dumb. Again, like the last post, I have no idea what to put for this one. I can't just put a picture. I created a blog so I could write about the pictures.  This category is proving to be a challenge. I don't really want to put a picture showing how many freakin letters I wrote to my husband when he was in boot camp, it was a lot though! I don't want to post a picture of alphabet blocks, a piece of architecture that looks like my favorite letter, or anything else of that nature.

So, after giving it some thought I have decided to actually write a little letter. There are some things I would LOVE to say to some people. However in an effort to avoid drama I decided to just write a general letter to all of you, my readers.

Ummm... here is a picture... 

Dear Readers-

Thank you for taking time out of your days, busy or not, to read my blog. I make it for my own entertainment, but I LOVE that it entertains yall as well. So close to 2500 page views in a month and a half. I'm impressed! I do wish yall would leave me some comments every now and then. It would be pretty neat to know WHO reads my posts. 

Writing this letter was  stupid idea, I am feeling pretty ridiculous at the moment. I hope yall are having a wonderful weekend!

-Anne

Day 18: A picture of your biggest insecurity.

Hmm... I am having a hard time thinking of something for this category. I decided to look up the word "insecurity" to see if the definition would help. Wikipedia says it is "a feeling of general unease or nervousness that may be triggered by perceiving of oneself to be unloved, inadequate or worthless (whether in a rational or an irrational manner)....Insecurity may cause shyness, paranoia and social withdrawal, or alternatively it may encourage compensatory behaviors such as arrogance, aggression, or bullying." Yeah, it didn't help much. 

So I cheated and looked at other people's "challenge" pictures on facebook... I found not being good enough, acne, and other things that didn't fully fit me. I do have a concern that people won't like me, that I am not pretty enough, that I am always being judged, but I don't think that I have one single biggest insecurity that really stands out. I really don't like my body. I feel kind of hobbit-like. Honestly though, I recognize that my flabby tummy is something I could change, but haven't. If it were really my BIGGEST insecurity I would work out and/or watch what I eat. After doing some searching.... I found something better... a different category. So now this post will be:

Day 18: A picture from the summer

Clearly I am incapable of picking just one picture! :-)

Cow Appreciation Day!

4th of July with my amazing sailor.

Traveling to California to NACURH

Programming as an RA in Lowndes Hall.

Going to Wild Adventures.. for free :-)

And some more visits with my sailor. <3