Day 27 - A picture of you and a family member.

Finally! An easy one! Here is a picture of me and my mom. :-) I miss her so much! I haven't seen her since Christmas time, but she is coming up here in a few weeks so I am really excited! 

Here we are on my wedding day. :-)

Day 26 - A picture of your day

Today was actually pretty crappy. I spent another Saturday at Gloria Jeans. Don't get me wrong, I still love my job and the people I work with. However today, I was just not feelin the love. I just wanted to be with my husband on his day off. I knew working weekends were a part of the position when I was hired, I guess I just didn't really know it would be EVERY weekend. It is really hard for Rusty and I since the weekends are all he has. 

Again though, I love my job. I love making expresso drinks and chillers. I love meeting new people, even if our interaction is brief. I really am happy as a barista. It is just hitting me how close we may be getting to deployments and I feel like I am hardly seeing him as it is. We talked about me getting another job, but honestly that wouldn't even be worth it. In a few months he will be finished with power school and in prototype he won't have a set M-F schedule. Then I may RATHER work weekends. Today I was just really down about the whole thing though. :-( 

Since I was so down and mentally preoccupied I also didn't enjoy my job like usual. I didn't feel connected to my coworkers, kinda like the new kid again.... pushed out of the loop. I felt like they would intentionally wait to say things until I was not around. Just little things like that. It was probably just the mood I was in though. 

Sigh.... another wasted Saturday at Gloria Jeans...

I thought that slogan was kinda ironic. lol

Day 25 - A picture of something that means a lot to you.

This one shouldn't be that hard. I am just not sure which direction I want to go. Saying my husband and/or dog mean a lot to me would be true, yet too cheesy and over done. I am trying to avoid physical things to avoid coming off as materialistic. I guess something that means a lot to me is my future. I don't know what the future will end up being, but I do know that it is important to me. I am a big time planner and right now I am at a weird point where my first plan didn't work out and I am still constructing a new master plan. I am extremely happy with where I am in the present, but I am just looking for a way to continue this happiness in the future. 

Day 24 - A picture of something you wish you could change

The very first thing that I thought of was "the world." I would love to one day do something that has an impact a positive impact on the entire world. Honestly, I don't know if that will happen. I feel like I could have made it happen if I still wanted to be a teacher. Who knows I could have taught the alphabet to a future world famous author. I doubt it would have actually happened, but it is a nice idea to think about. I don't even know in what area I would want to change the world in. There are the classic, world peace, cure cancer, cure HIV/AIDS, exc that I could default on... but I am not sure which one I would choose. And come on, you are greedy if you say "all of it." While it would be cool to change the world, I don't even know what part of the world's problems is on the top of my list.

Okay, here is something that I wish i could change. It falls closer to my personal life. I wish i could change when Rusty and I got married. I wish we would have gotten married sooner, like over the summer. (We got married in October btw) I feel like I wasted so much by staying in Valdosta Aug-Dec. I am not even referring to extra time with Rusty, before he eventually deploys. I am more talking about time I wasted at VSU. I wasted so much money. Some I wasted by traveling to visit Rusty once a month. Most of it though was by the substantial amount of loans that I had to take out to be at VSU that semester. I hated my major, so even if those credits would transfer (which they won't) I don't enjoy the degree. One day (soon!) I will be paying all of that $ back and that thought just sickens me. On another note I wasn't pleasant to be around that last semester at VSU. The people I met didn't get to see my better, positive side. My friends from before probably did not appreciate my attitude change. I hated everything last semester. My grades were good, which looks good I guess, but again no where I will be traveling to will have the major or anything close to what I was doing so they do not care about those classes I took. I just feel like it was all a big waste.

Day 23 - A picture of your favorite book

Jeeze. I don't read as much as I should. I want to read more, but I feel like I never have the time. In reality if I dumped facebook, netflix, something I would have plenty of time to read. I just choose other things. I'm going to have to dig a little further back and go with the Harry Potter series. I read those books as they came out. Which aligned my age with Harry's age. It was pretty cool, I am a part of the Harry Potter generation. I don't have a favorite book out of the series though. 

Day 22 - A picture of something you wish you were better at.

Yay! This is one that didn't take me loads of time to come up with! I wish I was better at initiating conversations. Oh, and just having conversations in general. I am so socially awkward sometimes. I don't mind just sitting back and hearing a good conversation, but I have to remember that other people don't always take silence the right way. It's not that I don't WANT to have nice conversations, get to know people better, exc I just freeze up sometimes... okay most of the time... and don't know what to say. Rusty hates it, because he feels like I don't like any of his friends. And on the other side a lot of his friends don't think I like them, because I don't talk much. When I try to come up with nice conversations I always feel awkward and either say something stupid, blush, or freeze up. It usually just doesn't go well for me. One reason I think I do okay, despite this awkward personality trait, at work is because the guests aren't there for long. When I start blushing, freezing up, exc I can easily look busy by going in to the back, making drinks, or my favorite is when another guest comes along and saves the day.

Day 21 - A picture of something you wish you could forget.

Hmmm... I am trying to think outside of the box for this one. I don't want to go for the default "I don't want to forget anything, because my past is what has made me become the person I am today." Honestly, I am sure there are things from my past that I wish I COULD forget, I just don't remember them right now. I am too tired to come up with something...just go with it... THAT'S IT!!!

Okay... here's something! I wish I could forget how tired I am! You know those days when the clock seems stuck and you are stuck in time. Then you think about how you didn't sleep well, you stayed up too late on FB, your feet hurt, you wish you had gotten an extra 30min of sleep, because your neighbors woke you up before your alarm, blah blah blah. I wish I didn't have those thoughts. I wish I didn't focus on why I am tired, I wish I could just forget about it. Whenever I think about WHY I am tired, it just makes me more tired. It all starts with the simple thought, "I'm tired." Am I the only one like this?